transition

16 Months On T

At this point in my transition, the number of months that I’ve been on testosterone aren’t nearly as exciting as they used to be. I remembered this morning that it was my 16 months today, but by the time I remembered, I was already dressed so I decided not to take my monthly photos. I suppose I can’t call them monthly photos anymore since I’ve missed a couple of other months as well. I think my plan for that is to just update on the 18 months mark and again at 24 months. Then we’ll see what happens after that. I plan to take photos of my workout progress, but I will probably only post them on my Tumblr blog since that’s more geared towards my workouts.

Some exciting things have happened this month, though. I was able to return to CrossFit at my 6 weeks post op mark. I’ve been going pretty consistently for the past three and a half weeks now. I nearly have full range of motion back now with all overhead movements. The only time I feel a little tightness is when I’m trying to dead hang from a pull up bar, but it’s probably 1000x better than three and a half weeks ago.

This weekend, my gym hosted a swim clinic. It’s the first time that I’ve really been topless in front of people besides Alex. It was a really good feeling. No one looked at me weird and life continued on as normal. Alex and I also went stand up paddleboarding this weekend where I was able to go topless. It’s such a nice feeling to just be able to take off my shirt and jump in the water. No worrying about adjusting my swim suit top and making sure things don’t fall out, etc.

My voice may still be dropping. I’m not sure. Alex made a comment about it the other morning. I’ll have to record it and compare it to some older videos. I didn’t really expect much to change at this point, but who knows, I’ve heard of it happening to others.

Not much else exciting happening as far as changes really. I’m getting more noticeable hairs on my chest, but they may have been there before. I didn’t make it a habit of inspecting my chest pre-top surgery. Now, I tend to look at it when I’m massaging the scars at night.

I think I’m at a point now where I’d consider myself “post-transition.” Bottom surgery has been on my mind, particularly a hysterectomy, but I don’t feel it to be as necessary as top surgery was to me even from before I began transitioning. I have seen quite a few photos and stories about metoidioplasty. I really like the results I’ve seen from that surgery, it’s honestly not a feasible option at this point though with how expensive it is and whatnot. If someday in the future, we have enough money, it’s definitely something that I’d like to invest in.

I still have some unhappiness with my fat distribution. Some days, I really hate it. Others though, it doesn’t seem so bad to me. I have a lot more good days than bad days in that regard. I feel like I’m moving in the right direction as far as changing the way I think about it.

But yeah, that’s my 16 months on T. Until next time.

pre-T vs. 6 months

One thing I wanted to talk about in my update, but forgot because I was complaining about my fat distribution… even though I complain about it, my body composition has become less of an “issue” for me as I continue on with doing CrossFit. My goals have shifted from how I look more to how I perform (especially with the competition coming up in 6 weeks). I’ve learned that with improved performance which requires consistent workouts and eating well, the body that I wanted in the beginning will follow.

Now, on to the comparison images I made. I know these are posted separately as they happened, but I thought it would be nice to post a side-by-side comparison. And… a little unsolicited advice  to those looking to start T or just starting, the muscles don’t just come with the introduction of testosterone, this is the result of many, many hours of working out and working out hard, at that. So, if that’s your goal, be prepared to work at it.

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Three Weeks

It’s been three weeks since my first injection. I haven’t really noticed too many changes or if I have they are hardly noticeable.

Below the belt: It’s still pretty sensitive. I’m not sure if there has been any growth there, but I think it has become harder.

Voice: I think I’ve noticed a very slight change in my talking voice and a somewhat more noticeable change in my singing voice. My throat feels as if it needs to be cleared frequently.

Hair: I might have gotten a couple of darker hairs on my chin. I already had like two or three pre-testosterone, but I think there are a few more now.

Face: I’ve gotten a little bit of acne, but not very much. It’s pretty manageable right now.

Muscles: This is the place where I’ve noticed the most changes. My muscles have definitely become more dense, and I think they’ve grown a little bit in size. I work out pretty consistently, three days on and one day off rotation. I’ve gained four pounds in the past three weeks, and I’m pretty sure it’s all muscle weight, not fat. Also, I’ve lost a half inch from my hip circumference. Those are pretty exciting changes for me.

It’s a pretty busy time period with school, work, and the rest of life, so I will make this a quick update.