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11 Months on T (continued)

All I can say is more hair. That’s about the only thing that I notice these days in terms of changes. I’m sure there are other changes, but they don’t really stand out to me.

I went out to lunch with my friends a couple of weeks ago. One of them accidentally called my she, but corrected herself. After that, she told me that she always thinks of me as August now and gets the pronouns right about 89% of the time. My other friend and I questioned her about the 89%, it seems like an odd number. She said she made it up, but she gets it almost all the time. This actually made me pretty happy to hear from my friends who have known me for a very long time (11 and 13 years) that they have changed the way they think about me now.

So, the reason this post is two days late is because I drove up to San Francisco to meet my surgeon, Dr. Mosser, for top surgery in person. My friend that I was staying with actually had surgery with him last summer, and he had a follow up appointment, so we ventured into the city together. It was actually pretty nice having someone to go with rather than going to the office by myself. I already had a virtual consult with Dr. Mosser back in October, but he took a look at my chest again. I have a lot of extra skin, so he reiterated that double mastectomy with free nipple graft is my best option. He also commented that it was good that I don’t have extra skin on my sides so that will make the scars slightly smaller. All in all, he and his staff were super friendly and nice. The hospital room is booked, and all I need to do is get my insurance papers in order. The only question I had was whether I should focus on muscle gain or fat loss. He told me that since I don’t have a lot of fat in that area to lose that for the best results it would be better to work on building up the pectoral muscles. So, that’s my goal for the next 3 months or so. I’m actually planning on talking to my coach tomorrow about the best way to approach this.  I will also be speaking to our nutritionist about how much and what types of food I should be eating in order to do this properly.

In other news, I won a free month of yoga for having the biggest improvement on one of the benchmark workouts we used to test our progress. I went to my first session this morning. It was pretty terrible, and by that I mean, I’m really not flexible. My muscles are super tight. They always have been. It was a good experience. I’m looking forward to see how I progress in the next month. The session I went to was at 8:30 this morning. I didn’t want to get up earlier than I had to, so I decided to do my injection after yoga. Normally, my muscles are pretty hard/tight, so I experience some resistance when sticking the needle in my leg. Today, it slid in so easily and was relatively painless. I definitely attribute that to doing yoga (it was hot yoga, at that. The room was around 95 degrees and pretty humid, so I was drenched in sweat by the end of it). I’m interested to see if this happens again next week (if I do yoga beforehand again).

The photos aren’t that great. I was in a rush this morning, and didn’t have time to take multiples. They’re also taken in a different location in my room now since I rearranged furniture after my roommates moved out. The shadows should be less variable now since I get more light from the window.

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Two Weeks – Second Injection

Today was the day for my second testosterone injection. I have been eagerly awaiting this injection for the last couple of days, since school calmed down a bit. I went to bed early-ish last night because I was excited to get up in the morning and go to student health services, but apparently my dog, Harry, thought he’d make the morning a bit more exciting. He wake me up early this morning by making throw up-y sounds. I jumped out of bed to clean up his puke before it set in the carpet, then went back to sleep for about half an hour before I had to actually get up for the day.

I got up and did my normal morning routine before school, but this time I packed up my testosterone to take with me to student health services so I could get my injection before class. However, as I was packing up my bag, I noticed Harry was in some weird contorted position just outside the room. At first, I thought he was having a seizure, but as I got closer, I realized he was looking. When I looked at it more closely, I saw his fur was all matted and wet from continued licking. This isn’t his normal behavior, so I checked the area to see what was bothering him. What I found was not what I expected. He had vaccines given to him earlier this week, and apparently the injection site was irritating him, so he licked it raw. =( By the time I disinfected the area and cleaned him up, I was running behind schedule by 10 minutes.

I hurried to student health services and checked in. The nurse who gave me my first injection called me in a couple minutes later. I walked in the room and sat down. This was it. I had to do it myself. She watched as I drew up the testosterone into the syringe. She showed me where to inject again. I sat for a minute or two holding the syringe in my hand. I am not going to lie. I was nervous about giving myself an injection. I didn’t want to wait too long though, no point in building up the suspense. Next thing I know, I was pushing the needle into my leg. My leg started shaking, but oddly, it didn’t hurt at all. I began to depress the plunger, but my leg just kept shaking. So, I had to take breaks from injection the testosterone to get a handle on my shaking leg. At this point, I don’t know why my leg was shaking. I had already done the hard part, but I finally got all of the injection into the muscle and quickly pulled out the needle. All in all, it wasn’t too bad. Next injection will be better since I’ll just be able to do it at home without having to go to student health services. I am glad that I had the nurses guidance though!

I ended up being half an hour late to my class because the nurse wanted me to wait around for 20 minutes, but it was definitely worth it. I found out that I didn’t really miss much anyway, since the professor had only started lecturing about 5 minutes before I showed up.

Anyway, as far as changes go. Nothing seems to have happened since last week. I think my face has gotten more oily, but that’s about it.