Month: January 2016

It’s been a while

It’s been almost six months to the day (plus a day) since I last posted. Alex has been gone for five months now, and my temporary job ended in November. My old boss failed to do anything about getting me hired permanently, and I’m not going on the cruise that starts in a couple of weeks like I thought I’d be. I picked up a job at Whole Foods again. That’s the quick rundown of what’s been going on.

Life update:

I’ve honestly been battling depression during this time. I’ve been meaning to make some blog posts, but just haven’t been able to mentally find the energy. I’ve been setting small goals for myself in regards to my job search and making myself more employable. I search through job boards weekly looking for jobs in the San Francisco and DC area, save ones that I think I’m somewhat qualified, then apply to them throughout the week. I’m signed up for a computer science class, and I’ve taken a couple of free courses on edx.org in computer science and water treatment. These things drain about all the mental energy I have these days. Doing much other than that is really difficult. I’ve probably been spending too much time watching shows/playing video games, but I can’t always be on the job search. It’s depressing enough as it is to apply to so many jobs and never hear anything or just hear rejection. I feel like if I put more effort in with the same results, it’d be even worse for my mental state.

I don’t want to jump the gun, but I have heard back on two jobs I’ve applied to in the San Francisco area. I’ve been afforded the opportunity to take written exams for both positions. I took one about two weeks ago, and the other one is coming up in two weeks. I’m really hoping I do well and make it to the interview.

I’ve been making back up plans in case I end up not finding a job in my field by a certain date. I applied to an online graduate program in Computer Science, and I’m also seriously considering applying to become a police officer either in the SF or DC area.

Transition update:

Everything is pretty much the same old as far as changes are concerned.

I was anticipating going on ship again, so I requested to be switched to Androgel because I didn’t want to deal with injections again on a ship. It was very difficult to find space and deal with the rocking of the ship. However, my insurance initially said they wouldn’t cover it. I ended up filing a grievance, and I actually received a letter in the mail yesterday saying that they finally agreed to cover it. I will be picking up my prescription tomorrow. I’m looking forward to beginning Androgel. I’m getting a bit tired of doing injections. I definitely don’t look forward to it like I used to.

In other news, I got an awesome tattoo to cover/camouflage my top surgery scars. I’m in love with it.

I saw my endocrinologist this morning. My levels are good, and I’m relatively healthy (my cholesterol is a little high). We talked about setting me up with a surgeon for a hysto. She recommended trying to get it done before the end of 2016 due to the uncertainty of the Presidential elections.

Overall:

I think things are looking up. I’m feeling like I’m breaking through this depression, and if all else fails, I’m planning to move to the DC area, so I can at least be with Alex. I miss him. I’m looking forward to my lease ending in August.