Just a quick top surgery/transition update.
The top two are from 3 months post op, and the bottom two are from 9 months post op. Not much change in scar color, but I think they’re about as thick as they’re going to get now. Some parts of them have definitely flattened out and feel pretty soft, but other parts are raised and could definitely use some massaging. I’ve started using Mederma on them recently. I used Kelocote in the beginning, but when I ran out, I stopped. We’ll see if it makes a noticeable difference.
I posted this photo comparison to my Facebook timeline the other day and received an overwhelming amount of support from my friends, family, and fellow CrossFitters and weightlifters. It was a pretty good feeling. I’m really happy with the progress I’ve been making the past few months since top surgery. I’m also excited to see my future progress. But more importantly, I’ve noticed that I’ve been feeling more and more comfortable in my body and I’m actually less concerned than I used to be with how I look. I still think about it, but it’s different now than it used to be. I’m less worried about looking feminine or having wide hips or a big butt or thick thighs, and more just think about being generally healthy and working towards being able to lift more weight. That can be kind of a rabbit hole too, because I get in my head comparing myself to other guys, but I can at least look back on my old lifts and old PRs and see that I am making objective progress.
Left to right, top to bottom: 8 months, 17 months, 23 months on T
My hair is definitely starting to fill in and some is even coming in on the cheeks now. I think in a couple more years, I’ll have a pretty nice beard. The last 6 months I’ve definitely noticed quite a bit of growth.
In other news:
I got a temporary job that I’ll be starting soon that’s sort of in my field (it’s at least science related). I’ll be happy to spend less time at Whole Foods, but I’ll continue working there on the weekends. I’ll still need my job there once my temp job is over. It’s only for 3 months, sadly, but I hope it will boost my resume a little bit.
I don’t know if I’ve just never noticed this before in my daily life, or if it’s just the people I work with, but the people there use very gendered language. My coworkers say “sir” to the guys all the time, even the guys say it to each other. It’s also a very boys against girls atmosphere. It actually makes me really uncomfortable sometimes. I don’t think I’ve been that oblivious to gendered language and such in the past, so I think it may just be this particular environment. I guess I’ll find out when I move on to other jobs. I just wanted to make a note of it to reflect on later one.