Month: January 2015

Learning to Persevere

Since I haven’t had much luck finding a job, or even getting interviews, in my job field (engineering, materials science, and/or biotech), I decided to apply to Whole Foods and Starbucks in the middle of December. I heard back from Whole Foods two Fridays ago for a Coffee and Tea Bar/Bakery part-time position. I went in for an initial interview on Monday and ended up making it to a second interview on Saturday where it was between me and one other person. I got a call yesterday saying they wanted to hire me!

I’m actually pretty excited at the opportunity to work at Whole Foods. I always told myself that when I retired, I wanted to go to culinary school and/or work as a chef. While this position isn’t either of those, it’s at least a step in that direction that’s more than my amateur cooking skills at home.

While I’m excited about this opportunity, I’m also sad that I’ve been unable to successfully find a job in my field. I’ve worked really hard over the past seven years to earn my degrees (plus tens of thousands of dollars of debt). But, I’ve been trying to stay positive. Luckily, the person who will be my supervisor at Whole Foods is aware of my desire to continue looking for jobs in my field, and if I do get another job, my willingness to work both jobs. The benefits for part-time employment are actually pretty good, to include at least a 20% discount at the store. And, I will feel a whole lot less stressed when I’m actually bringing in a paycheck (even if it’s not a lot) compared to bringing in no money.

I had to fill out some information for a background check. The information required that I document names, employment history, place of residence, and educational history in the past seven years. Of course, I had to list my birth name because I’ve only had my name legally changed for a year and a half now. I wonder if this information will be shared with the employer, or if it’s just used for verification for the agency conducting the background check. Whole Foods will be the first place that I’ve worked since transitioning where no one knows of my old identity. There will be no awkwardness or having to come out to different people who knew me before. There will be no misgendering because it slipped. I’m not sure how I feel about living “stealth,” but I’m glad that I won’t have to worry about coming out to everyone whether I want to or not (which is how I felt during my last year of school with staff and faculty who knew me before and after transitioning).

(Note: I don’t really like the term stealth because it implies that transgender people who choose not to reveal their transgender status are hiding something.)

I’m working on appreciating the things that I do have (i.e. this new job, a nice place to live, delicious food every night) rather than the things that I don’t have (i.e. a job in my field). Life takes us in unexpected directions sometimes, and sometimes it’s worth fighting against, but other times it might be the best thing to happen.

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