I can’t believe it’s been a year and a half already. Time is definitely going more quickly now. I’ve been keeping myself busy with looking for a job, and this week was particularly hectic on that front. I attended a couple of workshops for resume writing and how to get recruited, a job fair, a tour at a company I’d like to work for, and had a phone interview for a job that I didn’t apply to. This is definitely the most productive week I’ve had since I’ve started looking for a job. I finally feeling like I’m making some progress. Up until now, I’ve just been applying online to job postings and not hearing anything back. It feels good to finally have some sort of contact instead of just sending my resume into the black hole that is known as the “applicant tracking system.”
I will admit though, it’s nice to have only one thing on my plate. I finally feel like I’m at a point in my transition where it’s not something that I’m thinking about constantly. It doesn’t take up valuable mental and emotional space that would take away from my job search like it took away from my ability to focus on my classes while I was in school. There are still things that I would like to do, in regards to transition, such as a hysterectomy/oophorectomy and possibly metoidioplasty. However, those things don’t weigh on my in the same way that waiting for top surgery did. If they happened within the next couple of years, I’d be happy, but I don’t feel like it’s a necessity.
In other news, I finally got a suit that I feel comfortable in. It’s probably the first time I’ve looked at myself in whatever articles of clothing I’m wearing and the first thing that came to my mind wasn’t the fact that I hated how wide my hips were. That’s definitely an improvement for me.
I wore this to the job fair I attended on Wednesday. It was a little stressful since it was only my second time tying a tie (the first being when I got married almost a year and a half ago, and I did a horrible job that time). Not to mention, I only attempted to learn about half an hour before I had to be heading out the door. I think it ended up turning out pretty good though, all things considered. I was definitely one of the better dressed there at the job fair, so that’s a plus.
Anyway, I thought I’d post some comparison photos from pre-T to now.
This last one is just over 1 month post op to just over 4 months post op. It’s definitely nice to see the changes from working out are becoming more apparent.
Hopefully I get a job soon and be able to share some insight into the process while being trans. I am slightly concerned when it comes to background checks and having to answer if I’ve gone by any other names. I’m sure it will work out. I wouldn’t want to work for anyone that would be a problem for… but at some point, I do have to pay my bills and start paying my student loans.
Until next time.